Until the thoughts are
relinquished
by Sorin Atanasiu
Can you live a whole life in
uncertainty ? Well, I’m afraid you have no options. There are no options. At least in this moment, if you ask the same question
Philosophy is the best indicator
that a person knows nothing. It is the state of not having certitudes. It is
the condition of not knowing. Most humans live in this state.
Knowing means not inquiring.
The traveler through concepts
will develop an imaginary path. Philosophy, however, is a natural habitat in
which you just acknowledge yourself having a desire for knowing. Behind
Philosophy there is a desire. There is a need. There is an urge.
Even if you get the best
arguments to prove your existence, you still might be in doubt about it. I
mean, you can exist in someone else’s dream, or maybe your bodily death means a
total end of yours. We don’t know. So, the fleeting character of human life
abolishes any compensatory thoughts of being certain about your existence in this
moment. What do I care if I exist now, as long as I would stop existing at some
point ? Do I exist only for 30, 40 years ? What comfort should I take in this ?
None, of course. I’m either immortal, or I do not care about my transient being
! Seriously.
The imminence of despair is
justifiable. It is the sign that you’ve had enough of it. You should stop
inquiring using the mind. There is no breathing exercise, there is no therapy
in this world to answer to the most vital questions a human being can ask. I
witness the absolute bankruptcy of any philosophy or therapy. Because they
don’t have answers. They can’t have answers. They are wallowing within the
mind. They are conditioned by the mind because they deal exclusively with the
mind. And my restlessness aims outside the mind. So, how the hell can they
answer me ? Telling me words and/or concepts !? My own experience with
reasoning lead me nowhere.
What’s that big shit you want to
achieve in your life time ? Any answer is utterly unsatisfactory. It either
relates to thoughts expressed sometimes into material forms, or feelings. Either
way is unsatisfactory. And both are contents of your mind. That is the chief
reason I will leave my mind behind. It’s a tool that no longer serves me. It
takes me nowhere. I shall use it only when it’s necessary. Reason being the
only condition for this world and its inhabitants to function in this form (you
still need a job to pay the bills etc..).
Philosophy is the journey that
mind takes in itself. Not outside itself. Through Philosophy, one can learn exclusively
about the contents of his own mind. Philosophy can not pass through the mind's boundaries. So, what can you achieve through Philosophy? In the best case, one
can reach a way out of the mind. Otherwise, it will linger on inside the mind
for eons. Can a thought become a saviour ? No. There is no thought that can
save you. The best thoughts can only point out a way to escape from the mind.
Thoughts can not offer you redeeming. The thinking mind should be recognized as
an inextricable matrix. A concept leads you into another concept, and so on
forever. Am I in the middle of a spiritual crisis ? Of course, I am; I’ve
always been. LOL !!
Hare Krishna !
Thank you